Said goodby to Sarah. Driving on the road, the night was so sweet.

This is almost the last time to learn Bible from Sarah. We held a candle dinner. We talked about Bible. She gave good wishes to my home trip.

Either a christian or not, I would enjoy the time with Sarah. I will definetly miss the emotional time with her. You know I am always a typically reasoning student. In fact, it is her kindness that could make me ask her any quesions I have. She is always patient and honest. Her answers are the origin of my next questions. Our talking seems like an exciting circle.

Sarah makes me peaceful. Either exciting or quiet, my heart is always open to her. I hope so she is.   

I always told Sarah that she is my hero because she even taught English in Tibet of China for one month, you know, being there a visiting is one of my dreams.

Meeting with Sarah and knowing her, I would like to appreciate GOD so much.

-----I am am am so so bad.....English writing so that I could not even handle the tense naturally.    

The Rough Guide of the Brain writen by biologist.

It is a good book that make your sense how degree we know of our brain so far. I like one of the examples, talking of the important role of emotion in life.

Emotion is originally from amygdala that governs the motivation and decision, then inspires the physical changes. Those changes respond to brain again, generating feeling. Emotion can be excited either by real world or by imagination. How amazing, it seems like emotion that could come up from the insteller world or anywhere.

The subject of example is talking of a businessman, who is successful, smart, wealthy, handsome, blah, blah. While his wife was dead, after he suffered a amygdala damage, everything is OK, except for his failing. No problem. He is still smart and rational. But due to the amygdala damage, his emotion was lost. He can make a decision just relying on his rational, rather than any emotion. It was stated that the absence of emotion led to his failure.

This is consistent with my view. Keeping well your personality is very important in life, which plays a key role in the crucial moment of your life. World is empty or completely full. Your personality is the original point to make you find your way, your life and your happiness.     

Another interesting topic is about sleep. In my perspective, sleeping is the time to make up, arranging the mindset, such as undergoing chemical processes of brain, developing the long-term memory, ect.. When at daytime, brain absorb various energies or information, at night, sleeping help us to process the information or energy by chemical processes. Interestingly, you may say God is the one who seems life a invisional band to control the chemical processes. Spiritually, or by His help, your strength of mindset will be great. Hahahahhahahah

Writing my feelings in English never ever becomes true as now. I cannot write Chinese in my sweetheart in those special days!!! I am always wandering around anywhere but in office. I cannot even use my PC in office.

In those embarrassing days when I intensely learned English writing, my friend suggested me to write life in English. No way, why do that just because of working for life? Later, when I had abroading readings, sometimes, making sense of English is so pretty. Funnly, you could not find a parallel Chinese word to figure out the English meaning. An inspiration arises in my mind in little pursuit of the cultural comparison, like of expressing, languge, even thinking. In fact, it is at that time that a great dream was dreamed in mind. If, perhaps, one day, my English writing is indeed powerful, if I were still the one as now, I would write a English book about Chair Mao, telling those descendents who cannot read Chinese the miraculous old days, the vivid Chinese modern history, then raising a pride of their ancestors.

Since child, lots of reading always give me a joyful life. So far, two peices of books make me rightous and lovely, one is the MaoXuan, the other one is Bible. It seems paradox, but it is true. Bible makes me be cool, especially the life in USA. Chiar Mao's words always inspired me life wisdom, which is not  understable, right? Definetly it is true.

Almost to the last point, I realized that I am still using English to write my Chinese style. They never care about what you are feeling, who you are, but how you feel,  providing a rational insight to understand who they are. The cultural gap is big big big world.   

Is it OK? One of them is considered. Another one was retreated. The season, I think, is too long since their study method and writing style are similar to each other. Length is so easy stuff that I can set the content apart into two parts. Or rather than to cherish the top journal, I could make an option, indeed as a proffesstional scientist, to a lower journal, clarifing the great idea. It goes as it comes. 

More exactly to say, I do not want to work on it any more. I just finished it. Who care the top journal or the entire content?  I want to peacefully go home.  

I am a little tired. A few stuffs are coming together to make me carzy.  

Two of them are game-over what I call. Whatever their future that I could not handle, I should take a breath at first.

Five years are not short. But the great ideas deserve the best efforts. In fact, I stepped into the field too late. But I perhaps am reaping the best at last. Either successful or not, I have been enjoying the pursuit of understanding the physical complexity. The growth from the one with no any idea to a somehow expert is striking! Knowledge is fully powerful and happy.

This moment, I just want to express my appreciations to those guys who, over the past five years, even gave me chance to meet with it, to have free times to think about it.

After five years' efforts, I come to recognize that I am so great that I can do anything I do feel like to do. I have patience, perturbation, insight, wisdom.        

很久没有如此睡觉了.

8.30图书馆.12.00回家睡觉.2.00起来吃饭.3.00继续睡.5.30起来.9.00点继续睡.

天要下雨,娘要嫁人.随它去吧.再说这年头谁怕谁啊!